Dreamchasin'

ABOUT THE SONG
I wrote this song around 2013 or so as I was approaching 30 years old. I think everyone can relate to the feeling that you didn’t accomplish everything you had thought you were going to accomplish by this age. 30 is the year that we reach our Saturn return and it is at this age, where we start to come into who we are as adults. This is the age we are forced to really look at our choices and choose the road of life that we ultimately want to end up on. There are so many choices whether it’s going back to school, getting married, having kids, changing career paths, choosing more wisely the activities that you want to invest your time and money into. I was just extremely contemplative about all of these things as I saw the big 3-0 coming at me like a freight train.

It was a hard age to turn, it hit me pretty hard, but now that I’m over the hump, things seem a little less dramatic. This song kinda debates whether or not I should hang up the music thing as a “career path”. It was such a huge part of my life for such a long time, actually it was at the FOREFRONT. This song is kind of my last hurrah, giving things one last shot before having to accept that I can no longer put the time and energy into this thing that used to be my #1 passion. It takes its toll after awhile. I will always do music, but maybe it just won’t be on the level I had dreamed of when I first started at the tender age of 18. It’s sad and bittersweet and I don’t regret anything, but sometimes I feel like maybe I didn’t try hard enough. I definitely beat myself up a little bit in this song.

Words and Music
​by Justina Carubia
Scratch Demos ©2013

Verse 1:
Did I ever want to make it
If I did, where did I go wrong
I used to be so starry-eyed but I lost that fire
I guess I never was the go-getter
That I thought I was
Always a few inches to shy
I could never reach up that high

Pre Chorus:
And now I’m thinking that
That ship has sailed cuz
I’m getting older
But I just can’t let go
Of what I started

Chorus:
I’m not done dreamchasin'
Just dream the days away
Dream the days away
I’m not done being frustrated
Having doors slammed in my face
It makes me wanna chase them that much more
Cuz I have still have a little bit of faith
And I don’t wanna look back and have to hate myself
For not giving it my all
So I’ll stand up now and
Chase these dreams until
They run into the ground

Verse 2:
Now every night is sleepless
And the thought of time just ticking by
Oh how it haunts me inside
I wish I could rewind
Sometimes I wish I could start over
If I knew then all the things I know now
Maybe things would have turned out
Better somehow

Pre Chorus:
​I used to be so fearless
But my fear of failure
It’s getting stronger
But I don’t think I can let go
Of what I started

Chorus:
I’m not done Dreamchasin’
Just dream the days away
Dream the days away
I’m not done being frustrated
Having doors slammed in my face
It makes me wanna chase them that much more
Cuz I have still have a little bit of faith
And I don’t wanna look back and have to hate myself
For not giving it my all
So I’ll stand up now and
Chase these dreams until
They run into the ground

Bridge:
Look at all the time I wasted
Trying to please the ones who hated
Everything I had to offer
I wanna give my kids a good life
And I wanna be a good wife
But first there are some things I gotta do
I gotta stand up and
I gotta make these dreams come true
I gotta make these dreams come true
But it don’t come easy…

​Chorus:
I’m not done Dreamchasin’
Just dream the days away
Dream the days away
I’m not done being frustrated
Having doors slammed in my face
It makes me wanna chase them that much more
Cuz I have still have a little bit of faith
And I don’t wanna look back and have to hate myself
For not giving it my all
So I’ll stand up now and
Chase these dreams until
They run into the ground
Run into the ground…
Run into ground…
Run into the ground…
Run into the ground…