ABOUT THE SONG 
This song was written around 2005 or 2006. It was written about the same couple that I wrote about in my song “My Last Goodbye”. That song was written from the guy’s perspective whereas this song was written from the girl’s perspective. The verses hint toward a secret that has led to the downfall of their once strong and promising relationship. The choruses are basically the girl telling him that she doesn’t belong to him anymore due to the circumstances that have occurred which have hurt her. This song is a bonus track on my Last One Standing EP.

Words and Music
By Justina Carubia
Last One Standing EP ©2007

Verse 1: 
Windows are closed
But doors are always open
The silence you spoke
Was as bountiful as nothingAnd the air is cold
But somehow I stay warm
The time between is torn

Chorus:
And I speak for you
When I say the things you’re thinking
That you don’t have the courage to
And if you get the nerve
To bash me with your little white lies
Just remember
The winner can lose the prize…

Verse 2:
Secrets impose
To steal a fate once roaring with thunder
Now are disclosed
And all that we’ve worked for
Is bound to fall underAnd plagiarized
Are the words you used to win me over
oooh, Game Over

Chorus:
And I speak for you
When I say the things you’re thinking
That you don’t have the courage to
And if you get the nerve
To bash me with your little white lies
Just remember
The winner can lose the prize…
Just remember
The winner can lose the prize…

Bridge:
We’re playin with fire
We’re treddin in water
And all that we’ve worked for
Is bound to fall under
The things that we do
We put ourselves
For Love

Chorus:
And I speak for you
When I say the things you’re thinking
That you don’t have the courage to
And if you get the nerve
To bash me with your little white lies
Just remember
The winner can lose the prize…
Just remember
The winner can lose the prize…

ABOUT THE SONG 
This was the second song I ever wrote (2002) and it's about dwelling on a friend who has changed as a result of a romantic relationship. It's about reminiscing back to when things were more friendly with that person before the romance, and how romantic feelings and emotions can make things so complicated, and sometimes very awkward. Oh teen romance, how I don't miss you at all! 

Words and Music
by Justina Carubia
Self Titled EP ©2003

Verse 1:
Time’s been passin’ so slow
But you have changed
I try not to think of you
But memories still remain

Pre Chorus:
I even ripped your picture off my wall
I tell myself not to wait for you to call
​
Chorus:
I know you don’t want me no more
It’s driving me insane
I liked you
The way you were before
Why’d you have to change?
I liked you
The way you were before

Verse 2:
My heart still trembles at
The thought of you
But it’s only a matter of time
Till I’m through with you

Pre Chorus:
Don’t wanna hide in the shadows of love anymore
I just want you
The way you were before
​
Chorus:
I know you don’t want me no more
It’s driving me insane
I liked you
The way you were before
Why’d you have to change?
I liked you
The way you were before
​
Bridge:
There was something there
But now you just don’t care

Chorus:
I know you don’t want me no more
It’s driving me insane
I liked you
The way you were before
Why’d you have to change?
I liked you
The way you were before

I liked you
The way you were before
I liked you
The way you were before

ABOUT THE SONG 
I wrote this song around 2013, I had just gotten a new notebook, and when I get new notebooks, I always get this sudden burst of inspiration. Something about the blank pages, makes me want to fill them all with songs and creative thoughts. When I got this notebook, I had given myself a challenge that I wanted to write one song a day. Well, that challenge didn't last long at all, hahaha! But I got this song out of it! The song is based on the book The Frenzy, by one of my favorite authors Francesca Lia Block. It's about a girl who is a werewolf, so that inspired me to write this song from her perspective. This song wasn't written about the book specifically, I just used the concept to get a feel of what it would be like inside the mind of a girl with supernatural tendencies who has the desire to eat people hahaha. I could see the production going in the style of Christina Aguilera's song "Infatuation". It definitely has a latin rhythm type feel which is a lot of fun.

Music & Lyrics 
By Justina Carubia
Scratch Demos © 2013

Verse 1: 
​So it's getting pretty dark now 
Gonna lose the light soon honey
Shoulda gotten in that car 
Shoulda taken that ride 
When you had the chance 

Cuz I got my eye on somethin'
I'm gettin' pretty hungry baby 
Mmm Mmm
Am I making you nervous?
Cuz I could see the sweat 
Drippin' from your hands 

Pre Chorus:
Cuz you are the one 
You are the one
You are the one
That I gotta have...

Chorus:
I can't control this hunger
It's got its hold on me
And I'm never gonna let it go
You'll never find 
The strength inside to fight me
You can hide, 
But you'll never get away 
From the Frenzy 

Verse 2: 
So now that we're alone now
Do ya feel the tension honey?
Cuz I can see your heartbeat
Trying to fight its way to me 
Through your chest

You were never a believer 
Of the supernatural honey
Mmm Mmm 
But then you see the moonlight 
And any doubts that you had 
​Were put to rest...

Pre Chorus:
Cuz you are the one 
You are the one
You are the one
That I gotta have...

Chorus:
I can't control this hunger
It's got its hold on me
And I'm never gonna let it go
You'll never find 
The strength inside to fight me
You can hide, 
But you'll never get away 
From the Frenzy 

Bridge:
Don't move too fast
Cuz I will be the one to show you 
How it feels 
To be at the mercy of an...
Of an animal 
You can run faster 
And faster and faster
Don't think that I won't catch up...

INSTRUMENTAL BREAK 

Chorus:
I can't control this hunger
It's got its hold on me
And I'm never gonna let it go
You'll never find 
The strength inside to fight me
Fight me, OH!

I can't control this hunger
It's got its hold on me
And I'm never gonna let it go
You'll never find 
The strength inside to fight me
Fight Me, Fight Me 
Oooh Oooh 
But you'll never get away from the Frenzy...

​Whoa Whoa Whoa.....

ABOUT THE SONG 
I wrote this song in the summer of 2008 about a relationship that started out really strong, and fizzled out pretty quickly due to a lot of mixed feelings on behalf of both parties involved. It's just about really missing that person, and the way things once were between you and them. This song is mostly reminiscing about the friendship aspect of that relationship, and missing those moments. This song is really based in feelings of regret of letting someone go, and then later realizing that you had made a mistake, but by that point, it's already too late because they have already moved on. In the song, I compare the relationship to Strawberry Incense, what was once a sweet and fiery relationship, has now burned away and all that's left is the destruction of the relationship, or the ash, metaphorically speaking. 

Music & Lyrics 
By Justina Carubia 
Scratch Demos © 2008

Verse 1:
We were so spontaneous 
You made me surprise myself
Beach blanket buddies at 6 in the morning 
And we both got burnt to hell 

You sure made sunburn fun 
Now all the layers peel 
When did we jump off the track?
Will we ever get it back?
Only time will tell... 

Chorus:
Cuz you're like strawberry incense 
Your love burning down 
Yesterday's memories all fall to the ground
And the ash is what's left here 
Now you're not around 
You're like Strawberry Incense 
Strawberry Incense 

Verse 2:
It's not until you're far from home
Amidst the ghosts of Old Jerome
And that's when you realize
And that's when you know 
That's when love makes you miss the one 
You know means the most 

The scrapbook that I made for you 
I never got to give to you 
It sits in a box hiding under my bed
Can't bring myself to face the pages
You never read...

Chorus:
Cuz you're like strawberry incense 
Your love burning down 
Yesterday's memories all fall to the ground
And the ash is what's left here 
Now you're not around 
You're like Strawberry Incense 
Strawberry Incense 

Bridge:
Maybe I'm a little too late
It was a chance to blow 
But baby
If you, if you change your mind
I'm still waiting for the rocks 
To hit my window...

Instrumental Break 

Chorus:
Cuz you're like strawberry incense 
Your love burning down 
Yesterday's memories all fall to the ground
And the ash is what's left here 
Now you're not around 
You're like Strawberry Incense 
Strawberry Incense 

Why couldn't you at least put up a fight?
Cuz you're the one I'm wanting here 
To hold me at night
I let you go, and that was then
But now it feels so right 
You're like Strawberry Incense 
Strawberry Incense 

Strawberry Incense 

ABOUT THE SONG 
I wrote this song when I was in my first year of art school around 2002. I just wrote it about the cattiness that young girls display toward one another. I had encountered that a lot growing up, and I really wanted to put it into song. The lyrics are a bit amateur, but it was only the 3rd song I had ever written, so I’d like to give myself a little credit where credit is due. I would love to re-record this at some point, in my adult voice. You can really hear my immaturity and lack of dynamic and control in my young little teen voice.

Words & Music
By Justina Carubia
Self Titled EP ©2003

Verse 1:
She sits in class fixin’ her face
As if someone really cared
She looks up from her mirror
Givin’ off her evil stares

Pre Chorus:
She goes back
To her world
Of perfection
In that piece of glass in her hand
I roll my eyes
And turn away
As she flips her hair once again

Chorus:
Don’t worry bout first impressions
Her face is all that matters to her
Don’t drop that mirror girl
It’ll shatter your perfect world
doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo
Oh whoa uh-huh uh-huh
Whoa- Hey -oh -oh

Verse 2:
You think you’d have egg on your face
The way she stares you down
As you walk on by
And your clothes, they’re not her taste
You could tell by the way
That she rolls her eyes

Pre Chorus:
I’m sorry that I can’t live up
To your expectations, whoa whoa
You’re too stuck up, I give up!
I won’t even try to be nice…

Chorus:
Don’t worry bout first impressions
Her face is all that matters to her
Don’t drop that mirror girl
It’ll shatter your perfect world

Bridge:
I hope one day for that price you’ll pay
For all those dirty looks and the things you’d say

Outro:
I hope you drop your world
I hope you drop your world…

ABOUT THE SONG 
You might know this one when I debuted it on NBC Philadelphia’s 10! Show, or if you were a regular at the Nutley Pub in the summer of 2008. This song is basically about not waiting around for someone who isn’t worth waiting around for. You know the expression “Don’t hold your breath”, meaning don’t expect anything to come out of said situation? Well the lyric “If I held my breath for you, I’d be dead by now, and I so love being alive…” , is just saying that you realize nothing is ever going to come out of waiting around for someone who just doesn’t care to show you the same feelings/actions as you are putting towards them. It’s not worth it, life’s too short…MOVE ON!! By the way, this song is super repetitive, it COULD be the next "song that doesn't end... yes it goes on and on my friend..."


Words and Music
by Justina Carubia
Acoustic Demos ©2008

INTRO :
If I held my breath for you
Then I’d be dead by now
And I so love being alive
And I so love being alive
Woah Woah

Verse 1:
Swimming in the deep blue nothingness
Of uncertainty
I keep this to myself, I tell nobody else
It seems a thousand days you left me
Floating with no destiny
But the air is running out
The air is running out

Pre Chorus:
I clear my lungs
This could be the last time
But then I stop and I think to myself

Chorus:
If I held my breath for you
Then I’d be dead by now
And I so love being alive
And I so love being alive
Woah
If I held my breath for you
Then I’d be dead by now
And I so love being alive
And I so love being alive
Woah Woah

Verse 2:
Did you always have this much control
I could be sinking by the minute
But this could be the last time
(This could be the last time!)
My oxygen is hostage and held to my captive heart
It doesn’t even beat for me
So I’m cutting my own line
I’m cutting my own line

Pre Chorus:
I clear my lungs
This could be the last time
But then I stop and I think to myself

Chorus:
If I held my breath for you
Then I’d be dead by now
And I so love being alive
And I so love being alive
Woah
If I held my breath for you
Then I’d be dead by now
And I so love being alive
And I so love being alive
Woah Woah
Woah Woah

Pre Chorus:
I clear my lungs
This could be the last time
But then I stop and I think to myself

Chorus Repeat 2x
If I held my breath for you
Then I’d be dead by now
And I so love being alive
And I so love being alive
Whoa

If I held my breath for you
I’d die a thousand times
And I so love being alive
And I so love being alive
Whoa

ABOUT THE SONG 
I was in art school when I wrote this around 2002 or 03 and I remember being friends with this kid who was a bit of a clown. He didn't take life all too seriously, and he definitely didn't take his work and classes seriously either. He was starting to fall into line with the trouble makers of the school, and it was like I didn't even know the person he was becoming anymore. It made me sad to see someone I was friends start to not really care about his own well-being, and blow off his responsibilities. This song is about him being oblivious to the world around him because he was so in his own bubble. The line "go get some more of what you need" was an obscure reference to weed, haha.  I was listening to a lot of Lisa Loeb at the time and I really loved her juvenile style of storytelling through her lyrics, so I tried to emulate the same kind of lyrical style. 

Music and Lyrics 
By Justina Carubia
Scratch Demos ©2002

Verse 1: 
There once was a boy 
Who lived in a place he called nowhere
Well that's what it was to him 
He lived his live 
Oblivious to everything around him 

He said, 
"Don't bother me for, 
I don't know what day it is..."
He said, 
"Just let me be, 
And you will see..."

Chorus:
Oblivion Boy 
What are you gonna make of yourself
When all the fun is over 
What will you be?

Verse 2:
One day, 
While sitting next to 
A pile of magazines
I started flipping through 

He asked,
​"What does this word mean 
And who is she?"
I said, "Don't bother me for 
You don't know what day it is 
So I'll just let you be
Go get some more of what you need..."

Chorus:
Oblivion Boy 
What are you gonna make of yourself
When all the fun is over 
What will you be?

ABOUT THE SONG 
I wrote this song around 2002 or 2003 for my boyfriend at the time. It's just a super innocent puppy love type of song. It's also lyrically very codependent sounding in retrospect HAHAH! Oh, young love (eye roll and puke)...

Words & Music 
By Justina Carubia
​Scratch Demos ©2002

Verse 1: 
I have you to myself
I want nobody else
But you in my life right now
And when we spend 
Every minute together 

Pre Chorus:
I know nothing can go wrong 
This feeling is so strong 
I can't even breathe 
I'm wrapped up in the scent of you and me 

Chorus:
And I sometimes don't realize how much 
I need you in my life
And I just wanna let you know 
I love you so and 
I'm never gonna let you go ...

Verse 2:
And in my times of need
You never hesitate to lead 
Me in the right direction 
And when you lend
Your hand to me 

Pre Chorus:
I know nothing can go wrong 
This feeling is so strong 
I can't even breathe 
I'm wrapped up in the scent of you and me 

Bridge:
And I wait for you 
You always seem to pull me through 

Pre Chorus: 
Nothing can go wrong 
This feeling is so strong 
I can't even breathe 
I'm wrapped up in the scent of you and me 

Break:
And I sometimes don't realize how much 
I need you in my life
And I just wanna let you know 
I love you so and 
I'm never gonna let you go ...

Last Chorus Repeat 3x

ABOUT THE SONG
I wrote this song around 2004 with my keyboardist, Steve. He came up with the piano and chords, and I wrote the lyrics and played off of the melody of the keys that he already had there. The lyrical content and even mood of the song is a bit more depressing than most of the guitar pop songs I had written up to this point. However, I'm a huge Evanescence fan, and I really love classical/goth ballads, so I saw this collaboration as a way to experiment in that genre. We never officially recorded this, but I would love to still do so at some point, as my voice has matured a lot and I think I could do more justice to it now, than I did on this demo at the age of 20. 

VERSE 1:
I can't take this pain 
You're shaking, trembling 
Next to me, I'm suffering
I can't breathe

Keep your pity
I don't need 
Your sympathy 
I've come to terms with myself 

PRE CHORUS:
And I know things can't last
Forever

CHORUS:
But things were good 
Never Better
Now the light
Is shutting you out
Only darkness is 
What's to come 
Won't you miss me once I'm gone

Gone...

​VERSE 2:
You used to be the
One who saved me 
Now you are the one who breaks me

My heart is sharp like
Shards of glass
I can't rewind the past 
I've put behind me 

PRE CHORUS:
And I know things can't last

BRIDGE:
Every day is a battle to fly
To find 
Those wings that these tears try to hide
If only I could look past sky 
To see what truly lies

PRE CHORUS:
I know that things can't last
Forever...

CHORUS:
But things were good 
Never Better
Now the llight
Is shutting you out
Only darkness is 
What's to come 
Won't you miss me once I'm gone

Gone...

ABOUT THE SONG 
This song was written around 2005 or 2006 about a relationship between two friends of mine. It’s basically from the boy’s point of view. He hurt her and he knows he was wrong, but he goes back to apologize multiple times. The girl in this situation is standing her ground and doesn’t want to give him anymore chances. This song is his plea one last time, before he gives up on her for good. They never did work out.

Words and Music
by Justina Carubia
Last One Standing EP © 2007

Verse 1: 
You and me
We were meant to be
They can tell you that they love you but
They’ll be sayin
Something they don’t really mean

Pre Chorus:
These words I say to you are true
But still you don’t believe me

Chorus:
So this is my last goodbye
You see me cry but still
Tell me you don’t love me
This is my last goodbye
Before I go away…

Verse 2:
You and me
We were meant to be
Last time you told me that you loved me but
You were sayin it
Only to get rid of me

Pre Chorus:
These words I say to you are true
But still you don’t believe me

Chorus:
So this is my last goodbye
You see me cry but still
Tell me you don’t love me
This is my last goodbye
Before I go away
This is my last goodbye
My last goodbye
This is my last goodbye
Before I go away

Bridge:
The water’s pourin over my head
And you watch me drown
But deep down I know you wanna save me
​
Chorus:
So this is my last goodbye
You see me cry but still
Tell me you don’t love me
This is my last goodbye
Before I go away
This is my last goodbye
My last goodbye
This is my last goodbye
My last goodbye